The Road back to Heaven

ORD LO, seeing how i am more free now, i will update more oftens most probably, so for tonight, tata~

Ok hanz new song is done up~
now its time to think of the name of the song
write the lyrics, and record it down~

The band is dying man
due to NS partly
but whatever it is, i will still wanna make music as a living
even if i have to do it myself!
and whoever who is willing to follow me down the road to hell~~

ok yawnz,
camp sucks
its more like prison now
makes me prefer the strict but nicer CMR,
i mean, shit man, u give me a week to become good frens with a bunch of ppl whom i can't have any topics to talk about?
the ppl in my new camp are all muscle head weaklings man..
Nvm though, endure put on a social mask for 25 days to my 1 month leave~
then after that 6 months will go by quite fast..
meaning i need to finish my 4 target songs, hopefully b4 i ord
gonna be odd songs though
hopefully a song that fits one piece opening~
and a hellish song~
other 2 still pending...

Hanz intro me to carnivore.. a food for meat lovers
damn i'm like gonna try it this sat..
eat till i puke man!!!!!
wahaha can't wait for it...

damn i'm like digging kugimiya rie's voice ah
she does shana, louise, and nagi damn nice~
Hall Hail the Queen of Tsundere~~

gonna get my debit card soon..
then buy a underwater bag for ipod..
its swimming time~
leading to thiner face + thiner chin + lighter me + more handsome~~
then after NS i', considering purple hair and purple eyes~~ how will that look kana~~
purple or black will look nice?

why have i lost my music
i have not written anything for the past month le!!!!!!
damn

the new camp got alot of ppl dislike me~
i eat alone spent the time alone and get scolded alot
nice place~

do u believe in kama?
sometimesssssssssssssssssssssss
its scaryyyyy

yay, today i learned a few things~~


1.i've learned to hit hitomi no jyuunin~~
2.i've learn the link between my hunger pangs and my sleeping disorder
3.i learn that i need either a female or a very feminine good fren that i can talk to/with and watches anime too~~

lets elaborate~~!D
1.
i use to be able to hit the falsetto part only~~ after the falsetto the part HITOMI NI SUNDEITAAAA!!! that part was next to impossible in the past
now i can reach it !D simple sweet and tasty~

2.
this is interesting read, i read abt it while surfing the net for face lifting creams !D
well for this we need to learn of 1 hormone~
Orexin~~
what is orexin~

orexin is a hormone that promotes wakefulness
meaning it makes u FRESH~~ and not sleepy~
what has this gotta do with hunger pangs and sleeping disorder?
well , normal humans produce orexin regular and stably to balance between tiredness and genkiness
abnormal ppl like me~ with sleeping disorder Narcolepsy~
produces orexin at random and irregular intervals, thus making me slpy all of a sudden and genki the next~
oh yea
the more orexin u produce and hungrier u become
so therefore, at periods where i am more awake, i am hungrier than usual.. i notice its mostly at nights
thus explains my craving for food
now if u wanna say things like MIND OVER MATTER
well lemme know if u can stop the craving to fap or to even be attracted to someone cos its HORMONES yea
try to prevent ur pituatary gland from asking u to grow and try to stop ur dick from standing when u see a naked girl
if u can do that sucessfully, i will agree with mind over matter yea
anyways, i'm not saying because of this shit sickness that i use it to be an excuse for eating so much
but there is a reason why there are pills out there to inhibit this hormone for ppl to stop eating
of course u can always try to not eat when it comes but beware the side effects including like headach and weakness
lets quote from wiki
In fact, orexin/hypocretin-deficient narcoleptic patients have increased obesity rather than decreased BMI
orexin/hypocretin-deficient narcoleptic patients ======= ME
of course u can blantly deny this fact and say aiya science is bullshit just excuses
well if only u were me, cos i will like to be at the corner saying such stuff too , thats me, i like to  dig at people's inconveniences

3.
WHY FEMALE or FEMININE
cos
Melvin here is a beauty loving vain piece of **** who likes watching shoujo as well as seinen animes
therefore, i will want ppl who i can discuss beauty things to and that person is actually interested yea~
my gf is totally out cos she is so not interested~
my frens are guys, as in REAL MANLY kind guys who likes
cars, guns, bikes, any cool vehicles, robots, big big robots, guns again, bigger guns, war, soccer, espionage, spies, etcetc
whereas melvin is
cars, guns, bikes, any cool vehicles, robots, big big robots, guns again, bigger guns, war, soccer, espionage, spies, etcetc
but OF COURSE its not their fault at all lol, i'm the weird and odd one outta it yea
but i'm sure i'm a guy cos i love GIRLS(epecially anime loli girls that are underdeveloped), a common trait among guys~~~!D
which guy will talk to u abt stuff like
which whitening solution is good, which guy gets to be with which girl(anime), which hair product is good~~ so on so forth~~

of course, the fact tat i cannot find any means that i'm tokubetsu~ special da~
(u can come and find me to talk abt, loli girls, swords, dragons, magic, music, blah blah)

PS, i have great frens by my side especially everyone from the band~
so no complains of that~
its not their fault that the topic i talk abt is boring~ its just that i'm boring T_T(kusu kusu kusu)
demo daijoubu~ i have my imaginary female loli harem following me wherever i go to~ so i can talk to them abt it~~
and ppl ard me will think i'm mental~~~~

next entry~
number 1 type of loli girl i like~
in details~~ wahaha
another post that no one will be interested in LOL

The seventh month is over~
well quite some time already but still~~

crap yo, i'm in camp... doing nth, hopefully tml will get my off..
hair growing quite long yo.. must play 'snake' for like 2 days before i go for haircut with hanz...
music wise, i have a good song in my head now~ i feel like naming it, "Age of Rock"
sounds like a new guitar heroes song sia

oh yea, recently my mum told me why i can sorta feel little children's spirit when i slp kind, like when i last slp, woke in the middle of the night and saw a little girl under my table
Apparently before my mum had me, she had like 3 abortions yea, so she was speculating that my 'siblings' might be looking at me yea...
lol, sounds kinda creepy huh

yawnz. what should i do now... camp is a bore..................................... ORD SOON dammit

Everyone has bad days~ even me
lemme say why was today bad
it started off as an average day where i REMEMBERED to take my camp pass for once
then
i lost it on the way to camp~ amazing~
made a police report about it, hopefully they dun punish me they just fine me can le
next, phone line got cut, no keys home have to wander outside
ok that might partly be my fault, cos i did not pay my bills...
but hey
my ultimate reason why i think today was a bad day
i badmouthed GOD, thats why
see i said GOD was selfish.. cos thats what the bible implies,
also i said modern christians are fake cos many of the things they say dun make sense..
firstly,
GOD does not help u unless u help urself is not in the bible..
i think it appeared in Aesop's Fables... see
one example, but then i think abt it, the bible is rewritten by Constantine...
who knows what fake things he put in there
so official i wanna give a BIG apology to GOD
for i know and understand u love us all
i mean, the muslims and christians love u so much... u must be a great GOD yea...
i will like to thank GOD for providing me with loads of good things in my life too yea,
my GF, my BAND and so on yea...
so i'm sorry for saying u are selfish.. u are not yea~
the one who is selfish is most likely myself...
with that settled, hopefully we can be on good terms again my LORD
lets end it with a simple AMEN!

today is probably the last day we see the SP students
well she's cute yea~ wahaha

ok i'm pissed now, my supposed off on tues and wed suddenly became working days..
crap, now i'm damn shagged and i have to work tomorrow, wonderful combination yea...
but listen to this song makes me calm down~~
歌曲:分分钟需要你
歌手:林子祥

nice song~~

today is a day where i wanna relax~

今日はのんびりでいこ～

cos partly i'm listening to a song by osaka...~~
oh yea~ recently adrian said he got the deal to perform for his company~~ woot~~
shit gotta go... lunchtime, be back later baby~
bye beee~~

that was during lunch din know why i couldn't post~~

haha during dinner was talking yea
haha from what i heard i was abit of an asshole at times, i agree with him though~ still some things i feel like have to say, i might say it

lemme stress on several events

1. I'm an asshole when it comes to conflict, cos i wanna settle something.. i wanna settle it now kind... if i am given a logical explanation on why i did wrong, i will gladly accept that i'm wrong, but of course i'm an asshole will try to argue abt it ah.. but this is quite a rare case so lets not brood over it~

2. Sometimes i say things that might appear to be not nice and u might not like hearing about it.. if thats the case i will say.. sorry yea, cos i DUN know that it will offend u, firstly, i DO put myself in ur shoes, just that i feel that if i was the one being said such stuff i personally will not take it too hard, but hey, if i really offend u, pls let me know on the SPOT so i know and will understand , but of course, back to point 1, i'm an asshole but dun worry, i will only remain as asshole for 5 mins, then i will feel sorry and will not continue, but pls yea, jokes aside, pls let me know if i offend u in anyway and we will and can settle it nicely, i dun like conflicts

3. I know i like to act cute, its kinda hard to stop acting cute cos its like , inbuild and habit, even though i know i'm short , fat and fugly, but if i really do act cute and u cannot stand it, let me know and we can go through point 1...

POINTS ABOVE ARE SAID WITH HUMOR, I TEND TO JOKE OVER SUCH MATTERS BUT I DUN WANT ANY PPL UNHAPPY WITH ME, ANYTHING PLS LET ME KNOW YEA~ I'LL LISTEN AND TRY TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER (ACTING CUTE CANNOT CHANGE) PLS TAKE IT WITH A PINCH OF SALT AND PEPPER AND SUGAR.. U GUYS KNOW ME, I'M A JOKING ASSHOLE..ITS THAT KINDA NIGHT I GUESS

ok joking aside, serious now , If anyone feels that i'm over confident of the band, its cos maybe i really want this to happen, and i'm just trying to push myself and hopefully everyone else with me. as said, pls let me know if u dun like anything abt me... i will try to change yea

lets write songs baby, finally am free to write my songs~ august is a busy period, gotta go for facial , move house
buy ps3, paint the house, steamboat, slim down, loads of work yea... but yea i can finally settle down and work on some unfinished songs, not that i might be able to complete it..oh well, thats that~

gonna jam this sat yea~ like been some times since we jam.. u know with all the talks and so on we haven really finish writing a completed song yet yea.. hanz say he will come out with a good tune by dec.. which means  jan can start recording and so on and if it sounds nice.. can do a simple PV yea..

first..slim down baby

national days its over~ glad i did the multimedia part yea.. its like..  i met great ppl there like melvin, rony and weikang, if there is a change i dun mind working with them again~

tml gotta go back camp pack stuff, after that i think its not gonna be over yet.. gotta do Dr alvin's wedding but hey, the big stress is over~

talked to hanz abt the band again today, and i really feel good abt the band yea, although we are not there yet, but i can see that we can and will make it in the future, just wait and see yea...

tml gotta go early and i'm still awake !!!! nite man

its like 2 am and i'm alone in marina here~ yea alone
its damn freaky scary being alone because its the seventh month firstly.. and ppl all trying to scare me...
blame the stupid police for wanting to do some stupid bomb search at 4 am....

soon soon i will have days off for myself... and i can write songs for myself, from what melvin told me, using sonar or some other good programs that works like GP but sounds alot better so i will take a try for it...

ok need to break now post again 

tml is gonna be a long day.. reach there by 7 holy shit, some stupid parade.. how am i to wake

yawnz, lol melvin told me he read my livejournal.. he even said that if we need recording we can ask him along, of course, i will really like to have him to help us record for he is the pro at such stuff. but mel ah, maybe when the band is alot better i will ask u for help yea.. maybe when we wanna shoot out first PV !D

hanz have to go back bmt, screw the NS yea... he can't even sweat whats the point of going there i have no idea.. seems like god wants to delay the band for as long as possible, starting with luq busy in april, jy busy in may , i busy from june to august, now hanz have shit from oct to dec... i pray not adrian has reservist from jan to whatever..
on the bright side, god might be trying to give us a trial for he knows if we have the faith in the band, it might go far yea..

right tml is shit early, nite..

NDP Preview is over~~
now i can rest and relax till tues~
tml watching movie with wingwing

wahaha i got alot of emails today.. this will add up to the number of ppl i can push to buy our albums in the future.. hopefully ah !D
been looking through alot of bands recently.. seriously, our lvl sux to teh kore that we cannot even be considered noob ah.. at least i feel for my singing...

u know, sometimes i wonder, if those pros out there, how will they be when they jam other ppl's song? what if hyde is singing gackt's song.. will he still sound nice? or will his voice totally misfit that song and sound outta place like me singing their song..
sometimes i feel that if we have our own originals and its nice.. if should be unique to my kinda voice and who knows , we can be the next big shit going on.. just some thoughts yea...

everybody seems to have their own plans nowadays, lesser chances of hanging out with the band.. hopefully even without meeting often they will still have the love, loyalty and passion for our band.. well thats all for tonight i guess nite folks

its 1 am and i'm still awake!!! tml i need to wake early o.O
the ndp is coming soon and finally well deserved rest.. from what my mdm told me, 3 months off is impossible and has never happened before.. 1 month is possible though~

but at least hopefully time will be nice and i can continue training my song writing skills...
sometimes when i see visual kei bands, i get the feeling that.. u know, there is too many of such bands out there, going that direction will not be a good idea, instead of wearing some gothic lolita dress kinda thing.. i see myself wearing more of the leather chain kinda clothing..
i think that image will suit teh band more ~

well gotta slp, nite

It will be NDP in 2 more weeks~ finally the day is drawing closer, its been a long time since i started on this project, sep last year.. almost a year long project , and its less than 2 weeks LOL, hopefully i get a well deserved rest after this event... hopefully a month or so !D
i miss Mint~~~~

working on a new song now.. i nv complete my songs but they seem to be getting better than the previous ones that i write
yawnz its late time to slp update again soon, nte

got teh flu T_T multiple ulcers ,  bruises on legs, migrain . wonderful national day making

in camp now with plenty of work~
but i'm lazy and sir is away~
what have i been doing recently?
writing songs~ training my vocals and checking our the current leader of the morning musume~
i nv liked morning musume b4.. firstly cos not that interested in girl groups that looked pretty but cannot sing.. or at least i use to think that
so how did i came across morning musume?
it started with Galaxy angels~ in an episode where they parodied Mini Moni and 3nin Matsuri.. from Mini moni i tot mari yaguchi looked interesting so i read more into it.. and in one of their song, Lucky Cha Cha Cha to be exact, i was soooo attracted to one of them whom , i tot was mari yaguchi who grew up btw.. until i searched more, and found out that she is the new mini moni member in that video Takahashi Ai~



well i know u can roughly guessed which girl eh...

from there , the takahashi Ai craze started~~ 
=D
the fanboy in me is revived le~ wahahaha
so whats this gotta do with Morning Musume(hereby gonna be known as MM) ?
well she is teh current leader of the ever changing group of girls~
and from this mm we find out something more shocking!
the 2 new girls to join the group is CHEENA!
like wut man.. i mean u have this japanese group, with auditions of girls going up to tens of thousands, and the chosen ones are 2 exchange students from cheena... doesn't that make u go WOW?
i mean its always a myth that japanese are rather not welcomed to people from outside countries, i mean u read the textbooks they seemed to dislike the chinese , but this just shows otherwise, which goes to the point that is our textbooks really 100% correct..
well that is that~ either way, this just shows that the japanese are willing and ready to accept people from outside countries and bodes good new for the band~
ok enough fanboyism now~

the band recently got a name~ woot, after so many months of being nameless, we finally got ourselves a name, credit to JY for the idea and everyone for the modifications to it.. hopefully the name of the band gets known in the future~

getting singing lessons recently, vocal teach says my diaphram is very powerful albeit abit too strong and i have no control over it.. if i can control it, my voice will be very powerful according to him.. 
another problem with me is i have alot of nasality.. this is the 2 problems i must solve within this 1 and half year.. =D 
who knows, i might have a powerful voice like gackt in the future.. look out for ze band man!!! wahahahaha

this are my beloved bishonens~

well gonna just update a short one with no japanese cos its late and i tml have camp~
well simply now i'm just gonna put up some images of guys that i kinda like.. it will answer the question to what kinda long hair i like too~
will upload it tml in camp
use the camp's photo shop... hang on